almost sealed

2002-10-18 - 9:45 a.m.

and so it begins. the waiting. i wrote your name in my curvy printing, in blue ink, across an envelope. two stamps. just to make sure. i cast four sheets of my heart and folded them into thirds. i haven't yet gotten up the nerve to seal the envelope, run my tongue along the papercut edge. but i will, i know i will today. i will have to do it and immediately give it to the carrier so i can't change my mind, overthink the message again. and then wait and wait to be judged. to wait in hopes of a reply. which then will only begin the process of waiting anew. what have i started by finally admitting an ending?

�

Pretend it's 10th grade. Leave me a note.

previous - next

�